Day 97

Weight: 149
BFP: 36%

I seem to have hit a plateau.  *sigh*  Figures that this plateau would coincide with my motivational slip.  Pair that with computer troubles all this past week (I about went through withdrawal not having access to the net beyond my iPod) and some issues going on with my personal life, and this has not been a fun time for me.  I don’t want to get into what the personal issues might be at this moment, but they could potentially hinder my weight loss efforts for a while.

I am trying to baby myself through this lack of motivation.  I don’t want to force myself to go all out, as I know that that will only end up with me sitting in front of the TV eating a tub of Ben and Jerry’s.  I’m keeping with the eating right and sticking to walking at the moment.  I’m hoping that when I sort things out with the rest of my life, that I might have the energy to find the motivation I need to do more.  And hopefully the plateau will break.

Day 91

Holy mother of God, it’s fricking hot!  It’s hotter here than it is in Florida.  And I don’t do well with the heat.  I’m just sort of laying in bed, sweating buckets, drinking even more.  I like to think that my body trying to keep my temperature normal is burning enough calories that I don’t need to be up moving around.  I’m going to go for a walk after dinner, closer to sunset.  I might even go after sunset, just do more loops on a less traveled, better lit route.  Even after sunset, it’s only supposed to get down into the high 80s.  Ridiculous.  I’d buy an air conditioner, but almost every store in the are has sold out.

I bought a new work out top.  This one has smaller straps in a halter-like style, so I’m hoping that my tan lines will look more normal.  Right now I have tan lines in the shape of a wife beater.  Not cute.  Actually, I’m surprised I’m tanning at all, normally I just burn.

I still haven’t come up with a refined work out schedule yet.  Right now I’m mostly walking.  I think I have Friday off, so I’ll sit down and try to work something out then. 

Day 90

Weight: 149
BFP:  36%

So my day off yesterday was great.  Matt and I went to see Eclipse, then came home and snuggled in front of the TV.  I have no idea how many calories I ate, nor do I really care.  I ate what I wanted, but I ate in moderation.  I had a good time, and I wasn’t freaking out over how many calories I ate (like I did on my birthday).

I’ve been thinking about this day off/high calorie day thing.  I think it’s something that I need, so I don’t go nuts trying to lose weight.  So I was thinking about how to do it, and I think I came up with a plan.  I’ll only take a day off on special days:  holidays (Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter, St. Patrick’s Day, Valentine’s Day), my birthday, and our anniversary.  Not sure if I want to do this for both anniversaries (marriage and dating), but I have a year to kick it around.  That’s 8 free days a year, don’t think that’ll kill me.

Day 88

So I was thinking about things, and I decided to take a day off today.  I’m not putting anything in Lose It!, even though normally I would say add it in and deal with being in the red.  But on my birthday I was so freaked out about being over, about seeing that number, and I totally stressed over it.  My high calorie day turned into a high stress day as well.  I’m not over doing it, though.  I had a yogurt with some cereal stirred in for breakfast, a Lean Pocket for lunch, and a ham and Swiss wrap for dinner.  For my snacks I had some low fat ice cream and a doughnut.  Honestly, I’m probably under calorie today. 

I’ll probably do the same tomorrow.  It’s my sort of anniversary.  Five years ago tomorrow, Matt asked me to be his girlfriend.  We don’t officially celebrate it any more, as we’re married now, but we’re going out to see a movie.  I’m not big on movie snacks, but if I want to have a small popped corn, I don’t want to freak out over it.  I’m trying to find a way that I can make this sustainable, because I do not want to gain the weight back again, and I still have more I want to lose.  So if that means that I have to take a couple high calorie days to reset and de-stress, then so be it.

Day 87

I’m starting to really lose motivation, which worries me.  I’m still eating right and working out, but not as well as before, and now it’s more out of obligation than anything.  I weigh 20 pounds less right now than I did when I graduated from high school, which is great, and it makes me feel like crap for losing the get up and go.  *sigh*

Day 86

So the final weigh in for the 8 week challenge was today.  She thinks I probably will win for the store, lord knows how I’ll place for the whole thing.  I hope I at least make the top 50, making the top 25 would be great.  I know I placed 8 in my zone, but who knows how many total people were participating, and how many are in the whole thing.

I need to look at my workout schedule tomorrow, rework things.  I also need to look at my calories.  I was so hungry all day today and yesterday, and that’s not right.  The one thing I can’t stand is being hungry all the time.  Well…that and being in pain.

Day 85

So I kind of took today off.  I was just so tired, and tomorrow is due to be worse.  Typically I change tills through out the night and only have one at 9 that I have to do, as I’m supposed to be out of there by 9:30.  Tomorrow, though?  Tomorrow is a 9 to 9 day, which means that the store promises that every drawer will be open and running from 9am to 9pm.  And this means that I have at least 6 drawers to change after 9.  And no idea when I’ll be leaving the store.  *sigh*

Tomorrow’s the final weigh in for the first 8 weeks.  Wish me luck!  From now on I won’t have to be weighed at work until December.