The Master Cleanse, day four

So I've been doing the Master Cleanse in an attempt to do a few things. I want to lose some weight, of course, but that's just a bit of it. Mainly, I want to get myself primed (more mentally than anything else) for the change in my diet, I want to get all the caffeine out of my system, and I want to work towards kicking my sugar addiction. 

I haven't been hungry, but I'd kill someone for a cheese burger. And fries. Cheddar fries. And a shake. (Can you guess why I'm fat?) So I guess an unintended consiquence of this is that I'm realizing some of the reasons why I eat, even when I'm not hungry. Boredom, when I'm upset, to celebrate--these I knew. But I'm starting to realize some of it is loneliness.  I'm lonely, so I assuage that with McDonald's. I tell myself that it's nice that I'm alone, because I can eat these things I would never eat in front of someone else. I don't have to bother hiding the bags of mini Reese's, isn't that great? So since I'm gonna be alone for a while longer yet, what with school and work, I need to find other, more productive ways to deal with these feelings.  I'm also trying to think back and figure out if this was part of why I put on the weight in the first place. 

So I know I've said this time and again, and that this blog has become a testament to my yo-yo dieting and weightloss over the years, but I'm going to turn over a new, healthier leaf this year. Starting with this Master Cleanse, followed by a modified 4-5 day juice cleanse. Then, since I need things that are quick and mostly premade, I'm doing a modified Slim Fast diet: Shake for breakfast, sandwich or wrap for lunch, salad for dinner. Two snacks (thinking almonds and a cheese stick or yogurt), something small and sweet after dinner, and a high calorie meal once a week. Once I drop 30 pounds, I'm dropping the shakes and modifying my diet so that I'm getting 1600-1800 a day, which is what I'll need to maintain my goal weight. Hopefully this one will work for me. Wish me luck!